When I was 22 I decided to move away from home (Tampa, FL) to the midwest for a job helping a small church get their youth group off the ground. I was already working in full-time ministry at the time and the song Oceans, by Hillsong UNITED had just come out so taking bold steps for my faith was the obvious choice.
A couple years later I was leading worship at a church now called Hillsong KC. There was one Sunday morning I was set to lead worship for all of the services at their main campus. I was torn because I didn’t feel worthy enough to lead people knowing I was gay. Before I took the stage I prayed – pleaded with God to change me because my heart couldn’t stand not being authentic and true to myself. After I prayed I took the stage and had one of the most powerful moments leading worship, so much so I was stopped by multiple people telling me they had never seen me lead with such authority and passion. The difference between this moment and the moments before was, while I was on stage I realized I was exactly who and where I was meant to be. I realized my being gay wasn’t going against anything but what others believed. If I was truly in the wrong I don’t believe God would have used me at the capacity he did and still does.
For so long my faith was dependent on the people around me. It wasn’t until I came out and took a step back from the church that I realized my faith is mine alone and who God is to me is different than who God is to you and anyone else. Something I’ve learned is, you can’t the the humanity out of the church, and humanity isn’t perfect. I can’t say I figured everything out because I’m still learning and growing but the one thing I know is I’m happier than I have ever been and met someone that makes me one happy mister.
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I am so proud of you Darrell. Your story will inspire other ppl in your shoes. Im so happy that you finally are happy with yourself. I want you to know I love you with all my heart. 🌈.
Love you Titi Julia
Thanks titi! Love you!
Darrell! It’s been ages but I wanted to say just how happy you genuinely are which it’s clear by your words and your beautiful photos, that is the only thing that matters and that you accept yourself and know you deserve all the happiness in the world. The right people will be in your life and want that for you and I hope you feel a weight off your shoulders since you’ve realized you’re amazing the way you are. Thank you for sharing and keep smiling and being true to you.
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Heather! Thanks so much! 😭🥰
This was great Darrell!! I’m happy for you.🖤
Thanks cuz! 🖤🖤🖤
My Pookie! I love you so much words can’t express! So proud of you opening up and sharing your story!! You’re a role model to everyone out there that has not been able to open up to their families. God loves everyone! I’m here for you♥️😘😘
Thanks love you 🥰🥰🥰